Fear-

Morning smiles
like the face of a newborn child
innocent unknowing
Winter's end
promises of a long lost friend
speaks to me of comfort

but I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
here in this lonely place
tangled up in our embrace
there's nothing I'd like
better than to fall
but I fear I have nothing to give

Wind in time
rapes the flower trembling on the vine
nothing yields to shelter it
from above
they say temptation will destroy our love
the never ending hunger

but I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
here in this lonely place
tangled up in our embrace
there's nothing I'd like
better than to fall
but I fear
I have nothing to give
I have so much to lose
I have nothing to give
We have so much to lose...

Sarah Mclachlan



Song in loop, as night comes to an end. Its like I am talking to an empty shell of a soul I used to know. No many how many days "God" I will never let go. I will wait and I will show you. Even if I don't see you or feel you. Ill keep going. Like in that movie the titanic when Jack dies, and Rose keeps going, she sees the world.... lives life to her fullest potential, for herself. I will wait.... You will see all the wonderful things I have become, I have done. What is it I want? Peace in my heart god.